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I’ve heard it said that men open their door each day to a field of failure. Things break, nothing works—not our tools, not our hands, not the soil—even the work itself fails. On my own, I try to be enough: for the world, for my wife, for my kids, for my art, for my career, even, God forbid, for God himself. Striving to be enough, and believing I could be, I fail. But amid the ugly tumult of my own decisions, deep hurt, wounds, and a relentless enemy, I seek refuge in the shadow of God’s wings until the disaster has passed. And it is there—only there—where I am enough, because he makes me so.

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Field Of Failure

Open the door, I get no rush
I sigh again, I know I’m pressing my luck
How did I fall from this proud-man bluff
I might go blind from always looking up

I’m not enough, I’m never enough
Nothing I do ever adds up to much
My fields are little more than permanent dust
I’m not enough, I’m never enough

I’m never bold, and I’m not very tough
I lack the soul that has the right stuff
My dying field stretches out into nothing
But come see a soul pulsing Lazarus blood

I’m not enough, I’m never enough
Nothing I do ever adds up to much
My fields are little more than permanent dust
I’m not enough, I’m never enough

Every man has to put up a fight​​​​
And steel himself against the ruinous blight​​
The dark wolves howling at my prayers​​​
When I set foot in my field of failure (where I’m not enough)​​​​​

Every morning when I first wake up
I see my fields, they're covered with dust
I wring my hands, they’re calloused and numb
But I hope tomorrow brings a gentle sun

I can’t escape from the voices I’ve loved
I try and fail just like Charlie Brown does
I want a heart that is given to love
I hope your heart is something that I can trust

I’m not enough, I’m never enough
That’s why I need you because I’m never enough